-the embodiment of cognitive dissonance-

i'm a UIUC graduate with a degree in Psychology but i'm pursuing a modeling career instead. i write, and tell lame jokes, and explore the mind. i am experiencing, accepting of, and participating in reality now more than i have been able to
in almost a decade.

also the plan rn is to quit my shitty little sales job (after cleaning house w/ my 50% discount) and start substitute teaching

so i’ve got like 2 weeks til my lease ends idk what i’m doing after lul

last night i was thinkin’ about how shy i was around TJ at first and how i described on here about watching back to the future 2 together and being just as awkward as, like, high schoolers, sitting beside each other still with a little space between each other on the couch, but having our elbows touching by the end of the movie.

i like hanging out and doing nearly nothing but i feel like i’m not being exciting enough if i’m doing that if i’m with nearly anybody, but he’s the exact same way. so we watch movies all the damn time, it’s awesome.

and by now we’re comfortable enough around each other to make ourselves just really extremely comfortable. last night we watched terminator 2, same place with each other on the couch. except now i’m loungin’ with my legs over his lap and we make out while we wait for the crappy family video dvd to unfreeze. and by the end of the movie we’ve shared a pizza and he’s chillin’ in a tshirt and boxers and has casually unbuttoned my flannel over the span of an hour.

this is like the shit you’d read in a text post on tumblr about someone wanting a relationship so they can [various cute things], and i’ll tell ya, it’s not really overrated.


So, I was in the car today and saw someone with the license plate “X0DUS3 5”, so I thought it was like Exodus 3:5 and I looked it up, and do you know what it said?

"Do not come any closer"